Pictures of you.. Pictures of me..

Pop by tkd at Membina yesterday to say HI to RH!!! hahaha.. Awww geee.. he's gonna be a daddy soooooon, christmas time!!! Sooo happening!!! hahaha.. Its a baby girl!!! =)

Yay!!!!! I've got my prezzie from my cuzzie today!!!!! Its a Doraemon globe puzzle thingy.. Its just sooooo sweeet!!! =) THANK YOU ZHICONG!!!!!!! weeeeeheeeee... i love it i love it!!!! *hugs*
my doraemon's smiling at me now....... ^^

oH yes.. and I couldnt find my pants.. so I grab ken's jersey.. which was long enough to be my PJ.. hahahaha.. and I wore it.. hahaha!! its huge!!!

Today we prayed my grandma's 49days.. and we saw a butterfly when we were burning the stuffs.. I hope she's doing well in heaven after today. I miss her. I miss her loads.. and Thank You for watching over all of us..

Im kinda tired out now.. Shld get some rest and yes, probably start walk/jog after tt.....

OH yes.. hahahaha.. my dearest Yixin BURN her hair e other day while turning on the bunsen burner or something.. anyhows.. She BURN her hair!!!!!! hahahahaha.. oOKies.. tts some wikid news.. hahaha!!! I missssss U babe!!!!!!

xox

--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
2:38:00 PM

--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
9:35:00 AM

There's many things we want in life,
we dream about and some us live the dream.

I want to be with my best friend for life!!
Doing things together and living together..
Perhaps, Stallion doesnt matter. haha!!

Today could well be my turning point in life.
Maybe my prayers were answered.

Yes, things do happen for some reason.
So many thoughts.

I've got accepted into Curtin for Physiotherapy.
Unbelievable.
Never gave it a 2nd thought that I will get into that school,
it was my 2nd application.
It is a tough course to get into.

Out of the 4 unis I've applied, only Curtin replied.
Thus, this is not a choice.
That is the only Choice.

After I resigned from SGH,
whenever I pray or think about my grandma,
I start crying. I can feel that she's around.
I keep asking her to tell me what am I suppose to do.

There comes a point where I felt like I've wasted 2008.
The year that I've learnt to be strong.
Consecutively for 3years, we've lost someone in our lives.

And this year was the hardest.

Falling back to ground zero,

then trying to pick myself UP again.

Everything just swirls around.
I should be thankful for everything.

I start to treasure what I have in life.

I start to treasure the people around me.
I start to realize only I can change my life.

I am lucky enough to have a 2nd chance,

to be able to be a Physiotherapist at last.
For now, I want to be a Sports Physiotherapist.
Thereafter the course, perhaps things might change.

The drive to be a physio was from Uncle William.
After a game we've watched together.
Yes, Im pretty sure I do not wanna n u r s e.

Thank You Mummy and Daddy,
for all the harsh times.
for all the support.

To my awesomest bestest Friend,

i LOVE u for everything.

I will be there to watch you graduate!
Something which I will be soooo looking forward to.
Dun give up on wanting to work overseas...
I screwed our plan, and I feel terrible.

I will just wait for the day where ever we are..
that we can be at some place living tog.

I will be starting school back at Curtin, Feb 09!!
Its back to school baby..
Its a totally different feel..
Im embarking on a mission POSSIBLE.
No room for failures.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!
*Toast for the change in life*

--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
4:35:00 PM

--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
6:40:00 PM

加油 for your exam on Friday yupz!!!! Then we'll meet and have fun sooooon!!! woOoohOoo..

Shopping shopping!!! Yipeeee...... Greatest joy is to be with U!!!! hahahaha.. go gaga crazzie...


Today, i went for the psychometric test..
Try this.......

What is the opposite of 'Right' that is the opposite of:
A) Left
B) Wrong
C) Correct

Hahahahaha.. Ask ME for the ans baby!!! woOohooo.. Bunch of shapes, Comprehension and Personality qns.. gee.. and I dun get the results.. haha..

Wanna go cut and colour my hair tomorrow!!! Hopefully.. The shop's closed today!!!! bugger!!!

--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
3:42:00 PM

Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

~~~~~

Everytime I listen to this song, I start crying.......
Its been a month odd since my grandma passed away.
Sometimes I just sit there and start tearing away..
I miss her.. I still do.. and she'll always be in my heart.
A blog post which wasnt posted.

grandma has passed away this morning at 11. Yesterday,we've send all e gods back to heaven, leaving one to be send today. After uncle william talk to ahma and send e last god, left for work, she slept soundly and peacefully. Most of us knew this is gonna happen after e gods were send away.

My nanny kinda panicked.

My mum was eating.

I was working, during lunch break at abt 1pm, i saw e msg from my mum.

i really dunno how to react.

E moment i reach ahma's place, i just cried.really cried..

To think tt i was raise by her when i was young.all e ice cream sneaking, me breaking e eggs while handling it..its all e memories. Im really sad,den again, it probably is a good thing for her to go. being ready is nv ready.. im e only granddaughter,n she loved me dearly,she's e only grandma i love most. Yest she was still able to recognize me and told me she just wanted to sleep..and she just slept. I told her ah girl sayang u. Mixed emotions. confused.

She was lying on e living room floor,my nanny changed her,n put her on e mattress. I miss her. I really miss her. Don't tell me abt meatballs,i'll just tear.cry.

Kenson's still not in e known,im not publishing this as yet,till he's back in sg.

7oct
Today it rained.it coincided with e time when she was gone n when my nanny found her.
2nd bout of rain was in e afternoon when e medium came, stopped when e rituals were over. The initial part is still denial. every morn n night i cry.. Just so sad to see her picture. I miss her.

Uncle William showed me a video on her mother's day unwrapping her prezzie. I just lose it, i cried non stop.....

Sorry Kenson for not letting u know.

8oct
Been folding papers forever. It suppose to be ingats. I dunno. I learnt more abt all this godly stuffs from 'piglet'(yibo's son).. He has 3rd eye. Scary thing he told me today he saw somethin in e lift behind me..okay,i just stop him.im scared!!!!!! My 2nd cousin was saying what if u knew?your conscience is clear,dun be afraid. 3 of us were sharing stories abt how we were when we were younger.. How ahma loved me so much..*Piglet's same age as my eldest cousin!! Slept and talked w my 2nd cousin e whole night till i fell asleep on e floor.....

Talked to kenson today while beside e coffin, i know how devastated he'll be.

9oct
Last chance to fold all the 'papers' we could. Tonight, there were prayers. And surprisingly or not, they weren't many ppl coming by.. We had curry chicken.. bee hoon.. We burnt everything after prayers.. the house, the papers.. The flames got heated up.. I cried. Ah kim, Zhi Cong, Natalia and me played mahjong!! haha.. All the 'Pong' and 'Gongs'.. oOkies.. still trying to get better at it. We played Big 2 too! Slept at 4ish am.. We were all sleepy and tired actually....

10oct
The final day, the funeral.
Muthu the fruit man came to pay his respects.. I just started crying....
I cant believe ahma's gone forever.
The songs tt the 'band' was playing.. made u cry.
Horrible feeling walking past the coffin in circles.. (its a gd thing tt e coffin was closed, if not i will be crying non stop whenever i look into it)
The journey to Mandai was painful, looking at the coffin going into the incinerator was very very painful.. my dear nanny cried until she fainted.
Collection of bones, it was colourful.. I held my grandma's BONE. I was reallllly scared. More rituals thereafter...

I Love You Grandma

--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
10:12:00 PM

Today we went to the Southern Ridges!

So tired.. Looong walk there.. Looong walk back!
hahaha.. Thank gOodness..
I brought my Skate Scooter!!
*beep*beep*

tHe crazzie bAby's bAck in shApe!
bAby rugrAt's gonna be out in town tomorrow!

Gonna start work back at Boost on Monday!
and still continue in the search for a new Job!

Everything must change.
For the BETTER now.

xox

--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
8:00:00 PM

--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
3:00:00 PM

Bruised.

Reason why I cant donate blood.

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Things seem to get slightly better, probably im better at what im doing?
Still Im literally fighting against so many ppl. And i just realized Im caught in e middle between 2 powerful ppl trying to attack each other and Im the 'TOY' they use, to see who gets defeated first. Thats not a very good feeling and position to be at. Planning to switch jobs and get out of this place asap. This is not my learning ground, its my battlefield.

I usually sleep like nobody's business, but now I can bearly sleep in the night, suddenly jerking up realizing its 3 or 4am in the morning. I gotta coax my brain to sleep. Its just terrible. I hate it. Probably I should do a research on why N u r s e s hate N u r s i n g so much. crap. I dun wanna try to survive in this kinda env, i dun even like what im doing.

No point talking to all these ppl. Birds of the same feathers flock to tog.

They just talk and never listen.

I got thrashed big time, and have definitely learn to be smarter. Assertive. Work's not your life, dun let work be in control of you. I have to be in control of my life. Stay strong. Almost defeated, I cannot be defeated. Somehow, we'll find a solution through all the hard times.

--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
7:45:00 PM