Friday, December 26, 2003
eLloz... Merry Christmas!.. Well, that was yesterday. I was over at Cheryl's place.. kinda fun, a gathering after such long time.. She has a bf now..an acs dude.. =b.. ok la.. tt sort of acs attitude.. and christine, she brought dis guy fren over too.. goodnesss! its a J1 guy.. obiang.. typical chinese look. haha.. look like a nerd.. dun look mature.
Guess there's a big problem with me.. I dunno wat i'm going through though. Was telling yixin yest nite.. why am i here, living in this world? what m i suppose to complete here? everything you gain now, when u die, u can't bring it with you! Maybe u can juz bring along happiness, and die peacefully. I go through life, this way, somebody else's go through it another way.. we'll still die in e end. Why make life so difficult for yourself, knowing that we all will still land in the same place sooner or later? U know.. I've juz realized.. I dunno the meaning to life. I feel as if I'm juz a person who happens to land into this place, finish wat i gotta do then leave this place, and continue my journey at another place. Sometimes, its juz a sense of 'lost'. I reach here, this is wat I've gotta do maybe for my next 50 or 60 yrs or even lesser. Thank God for everybody who has stepped into my life, but it juz seems... (i dunno).. Maybe I'm just lost somewhere now. I maybe able to find the ans soon, i hope. Had a thought last nite.. Well, yest cheryl was asking me to go church w her, kinda rejected though. Back to e tot.. Should I go church and ask God?.. I really dunno. Maybe this time its juz different. ??!
Everyday I wake up, I know this is wat i'm gonna do today. Its as though I know wats gonna happen, I've been through this b4. I look at you n even b4 tt reaction comes out frm u, I know it. Feel weird. Seriously, I dun see myself getting old.. Maybe somewhere somehow.. I got into an accident.??! I don't see myself turning old. I know I don't wanna die now, I know who'll come send me off.. I'M JUST SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW??
Ix, Enjoy LOTR. ;)
Confused KID.
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
2:21:00 PM
Friday, December 12, 2003
Hi! Ho! Its alright.. No worries! Anyway, I'm having a Christmas Party up the list next.. Its on 23 dec, tues. I hope you and ur sisters will be able to attend. Will sms abt it again.
Today, I went down to tkd. Its at Kim Seng, newly est club. In charge is Rong Hui.. Will be helping him for a while, but when next yr comes, I'll let loose! Cuz he's off to Australia.. So till den when he's back! ;) I miss tkd!!!! but 1 thing, i dunno how i've survived through.. cuz i hate running! a total gone-caser! ;b.. Its good to share what i noe to the others, its juz a sense of joy! Sad thing.. RH's leaving soon.. so i guess i'll kinda stop again. Why's tt e case!?.. Haiz..
I'm gonna start training from tom. Hv to get down. HELLO!!! I'm Young, but I look like a fat potato! >_<... *WAKEY!!!!*.. -oOps! Just tot its MONDAY!-
Next wk.. hv to go squash on wed.. skipped twice already.. bad girl.. then music on thurs.. tkd on fri! YiPee!!! Am i excited?... hmm.. kinda scared of running.. so tts y tom muz start! I'm getting tooo fat!
These few days.. Go out w my parents.. stay home tune in to cartoons! Surf on e net. Anyway, Can't wait to get out of this life! Hurry n be done with year 3.. Get Out of sch!.. Oh well.. Ya.. I'll be havin my attachment in march i suppose!?.. can't wait! tts e best! dun hv to travel sooo far.. wats bad is tt I'm gonna look like a fat angel frm above! >_<
Oh ya, when i was at tkd juz now, ken was w me.. so i overheard an aunty saying in hokkien.. whether if we were 'jie - di'.. so i smiled n say yes. den later she pt at RH, 'na ge shi ni ge ge ar?'... oH my god! She said we look alike! Anyway, ya la.. wat stoopid god bro! haha.. Even if i say yes.. they'll believe.. cuz surname also e same! haha...
TunE in fOr mORe aCtion!
TC n Nitez
KID
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
11:00:00 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Hey bloggy!!
Haven blogged for so long,lazy...Its just like a blink of an eye and the holidays are coming to an end already,i would say last year was more fun compared to this year....no money so cannot go out too often,the alternative is to stay at home and pig out in front of the tv!!its me against the tv babe!!haha...Its been a week since i seen ghissy,kinda forgot how she look like,sorry pal!!Should be seeing her soon for a movie and to pig out together..From before exams and to now,i ve been saying i wanted to revise my a-maths but i have not done so,gotta do it if not i will be seeing stars when school term comences,nxt yr have to put in more effort,no more honey moon!!No IT nxt yr so gotta do better..results are poor tis yr so nxt yr gotta be good..polish up babe!!I m so broke,juz received a reminder from singtel..chill men,i ll pay u!!when i pay u early,y dun u send a 'thank u for paying early' card to me,i m just kinda hard-up now..let me figure out..ghissy,i miss u eh..i m not avoiding u but i just dun go out so often to cut down cost..I dun go online so often now too..i m living in a world of me,my books,tv and music...so i m juz plainly in a switch-off mode..Pardon me sweetie!!anyways,u take care and get well soon..see ya
love ya loadz babe
yixin
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
5:25:00 PM
Thursday, December 04, 2003
Yixin called me this morning.. She received her results.One thing that i'm happy for her is tt she has passed all with a few Bs. Tts good.
'You've put in your effort, take this semester as a trial. Next year, you'll know where the standard is and you'll know where to focus. There's no point getting upset by not getting As, at least there's many Bs compared to Cs and Ds! How unhappy you are with your result, you still can't change it. Why not look ahead of you rather than moaning? Consider the fact that you have passed quite well and you are just in Yr 1! You should thank God for your results. There's always another time! Next Semester! Next Year! If you think tt you have not worked as hard, work harder! You'll be able to achieve your goal if you think ahead.
Let failures come back, and success to reign in the end.'
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Lets see... Results, wat do i hv, more 3Ds, 2Bs and 2Cs. Its kinda sucky though, but who cares! I don't really care less about results any more. It doesn't matter as long as I've tried my best, and best is what i can do. Next year there'll be psychology, I must get at least a B, thats 1 aim.
I'm not smart, studies? Out of question! I'm just an average kid on tt.. Play? count me in! ;) Some one told me this,' as long as you pass and you enjoy what you study is the most impt. It doesn't matter tt u dun score well! You maybe stronger in tt subject but of other aspects tt they din test you on! ;)' Think tt you r strong, feel positive! and not negative in life!
I'm just not good with books.. Let's say, everytime i go to any book shop or wat stoooopid lib!? The book is there, yet its not in the shelf! Ask for help, reply me with an obvious answer tt maybe the book is somewhere ard! Obviously i know tt the bk is somewhere ard, but where!? Maybe tts y i dislike reading bks, when i find 1 i like, this juz happens. >_<
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Life's short. There was this day where I woke up telling myself that I think I'm going to die soon, my life is shorten, but I don't want to die yet!! Ya, I'm scared.. Anyway, Think ahead!! I'm gonna be a nurse, helping everyone. I'll be a good one, and I want to be a good adult, unlike some *chickens*..giving empty promises and stuffs.
2004 is gonna be here, I'll make sure I'll make use the best out of it! Will be going for attachment, tt would be fun, I hope!
Have a wonderful December hols!
Love, KID.
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
2:06:00 PM
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Follow your heart..
No idea why's the decision so difficult! Well, maybe I shouldnt go back to work..
Reason: If i start work now, I dunno abt next year cuz there's 8 core modules and attachment. kinda scared. I'll talk to my mum again.
Yixin, know you were kinda irritated by this working stuff. Sorry! TC
Byee...
KID
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
4:16:00 PM
