Sunday, June 13, 2004
Nah.. hey, u know I'm ookies if u aren't able to meet me.. I undeRstanD!!! ;) Anyway, who's weiwei?... Must be cute! hehe.. And ar... U showed em the china pics plus some extra stuffs hoh!!
U picked a YelLow bRa.. haha!!! U must have missed me toooo much!!! hahaha...... =b!!!
Of course I'm a better shopper OK!!! Though sometimes I buy stupid crazy stuffs.. haha!!.. ;) But they're still nice.. =b!!!!
We all have different parents, though sometimes their attitude seem to be the same.. My mum always say its fated that you came into this family, having these parents, sisters/ bros.. You should treasure this short time you have in this life. Sometimes when we say its short, it dun even exactly mean that short.. But when u look back, memories just come, and you'll hope that you could have turned back time and spend more time with eo..
At times, its like a moment of anger, or even like eversince young its been like this and like that.. We complain. But do we actually think of the fact that, at least we still got this family? Compared to others, sometimes these complains are redundent. We may hate them now, but when good things come to us from them, we'll love them. Thats so human! U can't definitely say that you dun hate anyone then love them the next moment when they do good to us right.. At one pt of time, we'll feel tt way.
We should just feel that we love them always, though they usually get us at the top. Considering the fact that they have taken care of us, acting as our guardian. Dun ever ever ever cut ties or dun acknowledge them. Take Care of them when you can, even small actions alright.. Sometimes its not being appreciated, but the least thing tt you know is, You've done something good for them. To repay what they've given to us when we're young.
I know how you feel! Its like living in a robotic life at times.. When our parents say this, its this.. They direct our lives.. Its as though we have no control over our own lives at all!.. When we wanna do some things at times, you have to ask them if this is accpetable. When they say no, you juz have to accept the ans. You wish tt you could have done many oth things when u were younger or even right now! But when u think abt it, will this wish ever come true?.. It seems so far!.. So forget it!
Compared to our siblings, what we've gone thru is tougher.. Its so much different! Like what you say to me sometimes, 'Why you and ken have the same parents but totally different attitudes? One is like an angel, the other like a devil.' Yepz, same parents, but different upbringing! Ken's just like your sisters.. The age gap maybe quite close, but they suck at times right..
Think in their pt of view, Do we suck to them?.. We may.. Cuz they keep getting things their way, and we get rather pissed. So even simple things like lending them our stuffs, we gotta think twice. Will they destroy it?.. what ifs...
Its very funny.. We always treat others better than our own siblings.. Its so opp like some oth siblings!.. They treat their own siblings better than their friends. Sometimes we want to treat them better, but its soo difficult to bring ourselves to do it ya?.. By looking at their actions just pissed us off!.. -_-!! What can we do!!
There's always a better tom! ;) Learn to appreciate life better, be happy always no matter what happens, cuz there's always a solution to a problem ya!!
*If you ever gonna move out, bring me along!! =)
Kid lOves YoU!
rIng me WheN yoU'rE frEe ya!!
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
6:35:00 PM
Saturday, June 12, 2004
Hey bloggy & kiddie...
I know i was supposed to meet you today but my mum say stay at home with my granny cos i only see her once a week.Actually today was a nice day,i played with weiwei aka cinderella some zapsport games,showed my mum and my granny pictures you took in china.Then,at around 7pm,went to People's Park OG to shop..I bought this pink bra and actually wanted to buy this blue one but i dunno wats got into me,i picked a wrong colour and got yellow instead so i thought its ok,i will let cinderella have the yellow one when i get my blue one..I suppose i was in the fitting room for around 20-30 minutes cos the pink bra had its hook in front so i was trying to figure out how to put it on which i finally did..Mummy got fed-up for waiting so long so did my dad..After that i dunno why,he was really grumpy,Cinderella and i kept getting scolded for no apparent reasons especially me!At dinner,i couldn't finish the rice so i only ate 1/4 of it and partially because i didn't wanna eat so much rice.He said if i were to admit hospital one day for gastritis,he will not visit me and all that crap..I really wonder if he understands the meaning of going on a diet,it means you cut down your food intake by a significant amount and strink your stomach..Its not as if i am totally going on hunger strike,i eat but i moderate what i eat,my mum has no problem with that and apparently she is quite supportive of it..
I suppose i should use my laptop lesser to go online in case something goes wrong..Windows Xp is really an ass sometimes,somehow i feel more at ease when i use the desktop than my laptop,in case *touch wood* kana some stupid virus..okok,where was i?!Oh,when we reached home,my aunt bought us some stuff from China,Shanghai but honestly kiddie,you prove to be a better shopper than her..I will tell you more when we talk..I plucked out my phone wire and the phone cos its not working then i went online,then my dad came in and scolded me for doing that..Like i didn't even think i did anything wrong,its not working so why put it there,its juz like a toy phone and taking up alot of space..
I am not being sensitive but whenever he talks to becca,the tone is always different from when the converser is me..I told my mum if i have to be insulted before he buys anything for me when i ask,then forget it,i will buy it on my own..I told her,don't expect me to boot-lick anybody to get what i want cos its not me,either you give it to me willingly or not..Don't expect me to gravel and kiss your ass cos its not gonna happen in a hundred years..I know becca has been staying with my granny and accompanying her and all and i have not done as much but she knows that if she needs me or anything,i will always be there,there is no need for prove!My dad always say'you'r e eldest and what have you done for the family?"Let me tell say these..I have done my job well as a stuident,passed all my modules and moved up,i have been trying to earn pocket-money to provide as much as i can for myself so i don't need to ask for more,i make myself available when the family needs me without saying anything..I have tried to live up to his standards as a good daughter but unfortunately its not enough..
I have been leash so tightly by him for the last 18 years of my life,considering him whenever i make any decisions..sometimes even to give up what i wanna do..He is really restricting as in boys can dadada but girls cannot..I cannot wait to be free,to live my life and make my own decisions without having to be responsible to anyone..Sometimes,i cannot help but think i have lived my life in vain,not being able to experience things that i would have liked to..Fear has been lurking in my life,fearing of being reprimanded for doing certain things,fearing of being man-handled...I really cannot wait to work,to earn enough money to get myself a house and live a life independant of anyone..but thats a big step,you know cos to my family,moving out means denying relations,connections..hilarious right?! Anyway i really hope there will be e better tomorrow,thank god i m optimistic..
To kiddie,take care..love ya loads..pls never deny our friendship no matter what happens which i think you won't..take care!!
Love ya,miss ya!!
-xingirl-
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
11:13:00 PM
Friday, June 11, 2004
I thought what i've typed out the last time didn't appear cuz the thing was updating and not updated sort of thing.. woah.. but found that what i've written was still there.. left unpublished. I did it anyway.. =) *noNseNse!
Was suppose to meet up with ya today... but didn't.. =b.. u went for your hep hep hep injection.. haha!!.. Hate em!.. >_< oOoo... U didn't call me!!!!! You promised to!!.. heh.. But i promised too a few days back.. oOps...
whAtever!! So crapPy...
I did this namecard online.. when its ready, will mail u.. very simple.. Actually its done, but juz lazy to send the link... -_-!!!!
SigNeD oFf!
mIsS Ya!..
KIDDIE O->-<
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
10:05:00 PM
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
Tingy!!.. hehe.. admire u man!.. can type this again... haha.. Congrates on losing weight man!!!.. cool... ;)
Anyway, I'm not that angelic ok... U always say, 'u never see the devil in her only'.. hahaha!!! I'm on both sides then... U are not rotten alright... Its wat u think, but in actual fact, you're not.
Most ppl have this problem.. I read this article somewhere before.. When someone compliments you, you would say no la.. Actually you're looking down on yourself when on the oth hand ppl sees your strong points!! ;) So the next time when somebody compliment you, just say thank you, I appreciate it very much. =) and Smile!!!
still got things to type la.. but tired.. hv to go slp.. update again tom k!! nitez..
Love Ya!!
Kid
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
10:18:00 PM
Hey bloggy..actually this is my third time writing the journal i intended,previous two times something went wrong and it didn't get published.Just came ack from pearl centre,marie brought me there to get my jeans from giordano and i got a belt,jeans and a shirt for $50..Her friend used her staff discount so it was a rather reasonable deal..Happy but my reminder for the phone bill is here..Therefore,i gotta pay my bill asap..*sigh*,i m so freaking broke!!
Last sunday i went to minmin's first birthday party,she has grown taller since the last time i saw her but she lost some weight too..She's fun to play with but a little anti-social,she doesn't let people carry her except her parents,granny and her maid..Anyway,minmin's dad is my god-brother and her mum is my god-sister,she is the older of the two grandchildren..After that,we went to baby sarah's place to chill out,sarah is the younger grandchild..She is extremely adorable,she allows anyone and everyone to carry and cuddle her..Whenever i m eating,she will crawl over,hold onto me for support and reach out to ask for food..haha..She is simply irresistable,the way she chuckles and smiles at you really tug at your heart-strings..Have you heard of a dog that is scared of a mere 5 month old baby who hasn't yet learnt to walk?!Well,apparently,sarah's pet dog is really scared of her cos she will tug on its tail,pull out a handful of its fur etc..But the dog is really tolerant,he doesn't bite her or bark at her..thank god..she is really a darling..
Tomorrow is my web enrolment,hopefully i get to do spanish..Next semester i will be in a different class from yahui and the current 1f08s except pream,its always me but i suppose things happen for a reason..Just like the time when Ms Ho transferred me and a couple others to 2/4..Ghissy has started her attachment and so we spend lesser time together but its alright,we will meet up sometime..Kiddie,sometimes you question your ability,don't cos i think you make a really out-standing nurse,anything that you do,you excel..Sometimes i really envy you,you'r so angelic and i mean you got so much to offer..Gee,i feel that compared to you,i m so rotten inside,well maybe thats why i got you as my buddz,to reduce the rotteness in me..haha..nevertheless,I love you so much,words cannot describe..Oh yah,to qz,thanks for coming over and helping me with the modem,actually i m using my laptop now..all thanks to u!
It feels so good to have lost weight,actually the jeans i juz bought,kiddie knows which one..fits better..When u lose weight and everyone comments that u have succeded and you look better,all the hard work is worthwhile..I have no intention to stop dieting,until my weight goes down to 55kg..Its still a long way but when u look in the mirror and see the change,the joy is indescribable..Honestly,my motivation comes from the media,you know when watch tv and look thru magazines..when all those girls look so fabulous..I want to be like that so i work,also so that i look better in clothes..Hopefully,i lose more,more,more!!haha..way to go
I suppose i gotta go now,so i will end with saying kiddie,have faith in yourself,don'e doubt your capabilities and what you have to offer,i love u,take care!!To lil sarah,be good,listen to mummy and look forward to seeing you soon..miss you so much,never missed a baby in my life..but this particular one really captivates me..haha..Ok,so long bloggy,till we meet again!!*muachz*
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
6:22:00 PM
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
Yixin was trying to update this blog like 2 times...heh.. It died on her... Freako!!.. She say she'll be updating it tom again..
Girl!! Please copy 1st ok!! ;)
My comp is dying on me.. restarted it for 3x.. Sick! -_-!!
Tired now... tata.. thats it...
KID
--bOuncy bOuncY *kAbOom*--
11:34:00 PM
