Friday, May 12, 2006
TGIf- Thank god its friday..Its no ordinary friday but today is a public holiday!!!!woke up at 7.30am then went back to sleep till around like 11am..hee..Its really rare chance to be able to sleep like that..So looking forward to next 2 weekends cos no work so can enjoy with my family n my 2 darlings..haha..
Okies updates for this week..
Monday-Went reluctantly to work at funan..thanks to some idiot ass but after met ghissy then we went to eat at sizzlers..salad bar..had so much fun,laughing n eating so much till i was so bloated..then went to esplanade to walk n went home tog..I wanna go travel w u gal!!!
Wednesday n Thursday-got grilled by a collegue in doing template..Never got scolded like that in school before oso..The kind lady teaching me is pregnant, i think she got real aggitated i was so worried she would juz give birth right then right there..sigh i really really really suck in excel okies..u juz have no idea..Thank the merciful god above this is not gonna be my bread n butter
Was supposed to meet darling yesterday but was busy churning that damn bloody template that i forgo lunch..initially was okies smooth but till afternoon i got so lethargic n it was so diffiult to focus n i began making so many mistakes..damnit!!then in the end had no choice but to call darling n cancell our date..sigh..poor girl was expecting me..sorry darling,will make it up to u..hee..I m ur darling so muz forgive me okies..
Yesterday went home at 8pm..sweet aunty elaine took cab n let me hitch a hike..she is really so nice..providing sound advice frm n quoting bible verses to encourage me..kit oso sent me sms telling me to persevere n dun be discouraged..cindy is oso dearie..lending a listening ear to me n giving me sound advice..Thank god for all of em or i would have given up long ago..I noe its not easy for everyone cos ppl r breathing down our throats..That ought to die vermin!!
It really hurts when ppl keep telling u ur not good enough but ur ready like giving ur best n trying so hard but u noe sometimes mistakes r still made..I juz feel so peeveed like why can ppl do it so easily,like snap of fingers but i always learn e hard way,very hard indeed..Along come all the mental stress..and i dun even noe how to describe it..To many its simple,juz doing templates but i struggle to do that..No background is bad enough plus i m not the kind to pick up fast..I m staying cos if i leave now,its juz as good as admitting failure..So i shall stay n learn albeit painful but in the end walk out w pride n more knowledge..God grant me wisdom n determination to push on..
I miss my team-mates..miss jiaying,elva,regina..I miss kallang,training in kallang..the feeling of wind against my face when i row..I miss the feeling of satisfaction i get after surviving training..I miss all the train till u drop sessions..I havent ran for like 6 months n i feel so sian..working takes up like 70% of my time,sleep n spending time w family n frens take up e rest..I always fail to turn up during gatherings but i really dun mean it..Its juz wrong time..I will try my best to turn up next time round..
So many ppl ask me why i work so hard..I juz feel that i shld make the most out of this n work till max so next time when i m back in school(hopefully) i got more cash n all..I m saving for my 21st bash!!hahaa..
okies this has been a very long entry..
Have a great weekend frens
yixin =P
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